Its the last day of the year...

Didn't have any plans to do anything today. Although some friends had ask me to celebrate with them but I seem too moody to do anything. FP friends already date me out for a KTV session tomorrow afternoon. Just an hour ago, dar finally book "Twilight" movie tickets at PS. Maybe after that meeting up my bro and Sharon to have coffee. Been quite sometimes since I last saw Sharon.

Yesterday evening, I saw a post in FP forum regarding single girls prefer married men. But even I am single now, I doubt I be choosing a married or attached man. A podder stated that some girl thinks its challenging to win over the wife/girlfriend. I think to some girls its true, they like challenging "relationship". But what if their status was switch, would the girls still think the same, I wonder... I think most guys have the tendency to sweet talks young girls, telling them they will divorce their wife to be with them but how many of this "promises" are true? I don't want to pinpoint at anyone. If you were a single woman, would call a married man in middle of the night to ask him out and chitchat? One of my bestie got this kind of girl friend who did that, poor wife of his was awake all night due to this sms. -tbc-

Nice month of the year?

Been extremely busy to blog in here.

19th Dec, I went my grandma's house to drop baobei off. Because I gotta go Mt Alvernia to visit Shirley who just gave birth to a baby girl on the 18th. She have C-section so was still recovering from the operation. Baby girl Jerlyn weighs 3145grams with a round round face and she is so awake after she was fed in the nursery. Finally gotten a chance to carry her, was so afraid cause its three years since I carried one. I seriously missing the day when baobei is still a baby. Anyway, left the ward around 6.30pm. Luckily, Ricky sent me out if not I sure don't know where is the bus stop to take 167 to Cineleisure Orchard.

I went there to help Dar with his FIFA online event, gave out installation CDs to teenagers around there. Seriously, the feedback isn't that good but the game is fun. I really like to play FIFA.

20th Dec, I wake up at 9.30am feeling so lazy go out. Didn't really feel like it cause I am too sag. Finally, lied until 10 plus then I was willing to pull my lazy body put to bath and makeup. Play game until 11.50am then I went out to take a cab to Downtown East. Blur me forgotten my big big exchange Xmas present left at my parents' house but I was already 5minutes away on the destination. Luckily,y before I went out my mom gave me some money to buy CNY clothes and my MIL gave me some too. And the previous temp job pay was still in my account. So my finanical wasn't that yet so still can spare some out. I reach there around 12.15pm. Walk around finding present, didn't have much shop open yet so finally decided to buy a necklace. The boss is so sweet cause the budget limit for the exchange gift is $20 but the necklace I choose was $29.90. So she gave me a discount of $9.90 as I was the first customer of the day. So sweet isn't it! Xmas card brought from NTUC but ended didn't give it. I was the 2nd person who FP gathering @ Aranda Chalet. Eric and Jiafeng was there already. But the atmosphere there was a bit =.=". lols.. anyway, I am glad I did went for the FP gathering cause I knew a bunch of great girls.

I left around 11.30pm when my dad went to fetch me. My mom was hurrying me because I was already late (I am going to the airport to fetch my grandma who was back from Taiwan) But but but I still forgot to take my present which I receive from FP gathering.. zzz.. in the end still need to run back take. Went there to fetch my grandma and my uncle, ate some delifrance tuna crossiant set meal cause ate much at the gathering.

21th Dec When to my grandma's house to pray my grandfather cause Tong Zi. My 1st uncle drove me back home and thought I finally have some rest. But my MIL wanted to change her sofa cover which cause $800 just for the cover itself. Was so tiring to change it because it damn big.

Upcoming...

24th Dec Dar company Xmas party function..

25th Dec celebration with friends

31st Dec yet to confirm

1st Jan Going out to FP gang for KTV session!

Sorry peepz... been busy tese fews days.

Working on the 7th and 8th for APB as promotor at Far East Plaza 7-11 Kiosk. Stand there stare into the air... so boring lor... but 4hours of standing is so tiring. Got customer come and buy beer ask them to take lucky draw and give them the gift. Easy job right, but too free liao for me.

5th brought baobei to J8 and MS to watch Hello Kitty Show and Sesame Street Show. Very tiring... rush here and there.

10th - Go down agency at IP to submit form
- Go BBP to meet Candy Jie

13th - Buy my cousin Daniel 21st birthday present
- 2pm Flowerpod meetup
- 6pm Costa Sand Resort.

Busy right? But there's more to come..

20th - Flowerpod Chalet

24th - Dar company Xmas event

25th - Meeting Ricky and Shirley..

Hais.. more to come just haven't confirm..

Avelynn is sick again

Avelynn have been sick for the past 3 days, today she feeling abit better already. Yesterday, she been cranky have for the whole day, headache, staomache, want to vomit.. neem entertaining her the whole day. Waking up as early as 6.30am to accompany her which I slept at 3am. Been soooo tired, and not able to go down to my parents' house. *Pray Hard she recover fast*

This Wednesday brought her to watch "Sing to the Dawn" at Sunplaza. Thursday brought her to her new school for orientatin briefing and brought her first set of school uniform. And that afternoon she is down with fever already. Poor girl!!

Actually, yesterday we went to see a shifu @ Woodlands cause my MIL said she "fan dao" so no choice brought her there. Shi Fu actually ask us to do some burning paper and incest. She also must drink and bath in "fu shui". Bleah.... so I mixed the "fu shui" in ribena so she will drink it. She hardly eaten anything yesterday. What she eat will be vomitted out, she vomitted 4times yesterday. So most worst one is on her bed and on the living room floor.

After the prayer, she been recovering well. Glad to see her as active as last time. Hope she don't fall sick again.

Sick again

I think I am sick again. Within a week, I am feeling very nauseous and puking for a few times since 1 hour ago. That day, 2nd day night at Hatyai it also happened. So I think I got back the same sickness as previously when I was working. My stomach is getting damn upset already and hope I will not need to go back to scope again.

Anyway, brought baobei to IMM Jurong to play water at the playground. And brought quite a few things, 2 DVDs, $10 of kiddy rides, $19.90 (kitchen playset from my MIL) and her favourite sushi for lunch at Ichiban. Stay till 5pm then went home. Was feeling very tired but I still went to accompany DH for his eye screen. He having his theory test at BB car center this coming Thursday.

Hais... I feel like puking again...

Emo-ing me?

Sometimes I wonder, am I too over emotional. Recently, I been very unsatisfied with GOD! I think he is damn so unfair. Haha.. Know why?

He gave others who are ugly in character, a beautiful face and body, and was also born in a rich family. Although I am fortunate to be born in nice family who are caring but my family isn't that rich to afford whatever I want. And I don't have a beautiful face nor a nice body. How is god fair? Life now I leading is so plain. I wish I could have some big changes in life.

I know some of you may say, there are people who are less fortunate than me. But I am a green eye monster.. Haha.. yeah right! I am always like that ever since from the young.

Good people always lose out the most.. sometimes I hate myself being so easily pushover by others who I really care. Soft hearted is always my weak point in life and not thick skin enough. Most of the time, I am always trying to be careful of how I speak to prevent hurting others. Because I know I am a very direct person.

I REALLY NEED CHANGES IN LIFE!!!!


Okay.. just now I went to Cinelesiure as planned. I waited for the stupid Bus7 for almost an hour. Luckily got seat for me, but after my stop. The bus was very full pack even till PS. Almost can't get down of the bus, thanks to my big fat body. Argh!

Anyway, I went to find DH at level9 where FIFA Online Buildup Event was. Went to have dinner with him and his QA colleague. Funny thing is, DH doesn't like to talk to him, I had to entertain his colleague for whole time when we were having dinner. Felt so embarrassed and weird. We had Long John Silver for dinner. Sad to said my diet is busted ever since I went on trip to Hatyai. Gain back 2kg. Sians right?

Anyway, finish dinner went back with DH to his event place. I went to try FIFA for the first time with DH. Lost 4 match to him. zZzz... Anyway, I think I addicted to that game already. Haha.. I likes games which I get items when I finish one match. Anutie right? Hahaha...

After that, I went home to my parents' house. My parents brought baobei a $59.90 computer. Quite nice and interesting. Baobei's birthday will be celebrated on the 16th Nov, one day earlier than the original date. Still haven't decide what to give to baobei as her present. My MIL treating us to a Thai restaurant tomorrow, my FIL brought two set of Carebears and My Melody Bed Set for her which cost $120+. My parents gave her that mini computer and a $77.60 Care bear 2kg birthday cake. Fortunate baobei...

Bring her out on her birthday also. But have yet to decide where to do. Any suggestion? And another thing, Barney and friends Xmas show will be at United Square from the 26th Nov onwards. I plan to bring baobei to watch as usual. Every year, I brought her to watch. This is the 3rd time I bring her to watch Xmas Barney show excluding the Barney in Singapore 2008. She went to watch it too, both tickets from Sistic cost over $100+. Which was paid by my MIL. =p

EAgames & IAHgames Event @ Bugis & Cineleisure

Later this evening, going Cineleisure again. Yes again, cause I went there yesterday also. DH ask me go down support him as he is working as a staff there today. I am still thinking whether to go down town today anot, so many people. Sians...zZzzz...

Tired Day Out

Woke up at 9am. Wait for my dear baobei to finish her breakfast. Bath together with her and went out at 10.15am. I rush because I was rushing for the movie at 12.15pm. Although till 2hours more to the movie, I still need to pick my younger brother from my grandma's house.

Took the train to Toa Payoh Station but on the train there wasn't there one willing to give up their seat to baobei. Never mind, we stand but got one funny auntie who aboard the train on Yishun, actually ask a teenage for his seat. The auntie look like 40s or early 50s. She isn't handicapped or what. Funny lor.. and the guy actually nice enough to give up the seat to her.

Anyway, change bus 31 to my grandma's house. Reach around 11.30am. Luckily, Cinelesiure got slot at 12.50pm so change my plan. Took my brother and took bus 16 to Orchard Cinelesiure. Brought the tickets at B1, the counter lady told me that I can't buy the Moms & Tots at B1, must go level 5 and buy... zZzzz... Brought the tickets..

Went to a Japanese Fast food Restaurant and eat. After eating, my brother still said he's hungry so brought Nachos and popcorn for baobei and him. Went in, the teenagers behind me was so irritating, keep kicking and shaking his legs on my seat. Then, baobei was so annoying that she was fiddling non stop through the movie. Anyway, I watch Magascara2.... The movie quite nice and funny.

Finish the movie around 2.30pm+, went to find Adeline(my elder bro's gf) at Centre Point. Was discussing with her about setting up business online... to be continued lor. After that, I went to Bugis find my elder brother Alvin. Surprisingly saw my ex-secondary school classmate working with my brother. zZzzzz... very coincidence right!

Anyway, went for a while brought my younger brother Alex some food and went back to my grandma's house dinner. Was so tired when taking bus back, baobei fell asleep but there's only one seat. Hold on to her until my hands shaking (PS: my baobei is already 13kg)... So is really really heavy carrying her.

Back from Hatyai

Reach Singapore at 3am yesterday. Was damn tired because of the long trip back but still need to unpack my dirty laundry. After that slept until 11am. Received a call from SMRT HR that I wasn't selected. As my last post stated, they confirm me already and ask me to go down to sign the contract on the 17th and now they said I wasn't selected. Didn't ask why just said okay and I called my mom to tell regarding this. She told me to call them and ask why. Already feeling piss off, I called the staff who was in charge, she told me that one of the interviewer think that I am not selected so conclusion was I AM NOT SELECTED.

I was thinking so big organization can change their words so easily. Maybe I can sue them as I rejected another job because of their confirmation on the 7th. I am really doubtful as I apply for call center CSA but they arrange me for SMRT CSA. Then now they kept changing their words. Anyway, I also lazy to work after the trip back.

The 2nd night at Hatyai, I kept on vomiting till the next morning. Feeling damn weak and DH was having diarrhoea. When we went to the market, I almost feel like fainting because of the heat and nauseous. Vomit till I dehydrated. Anyway, my mom brought some medicine from a shop and after some rest, I felt better. Went back to the holiday, and have some rest but ended vomiting again. Luckily, that was the last time that happen, I went to eat Shark Fin Soup and Bird Nest Soup spent around 700baht. DH didn't felt really well, so he didn't went. Brought quite a number of things.

Anyway, I am too sick to post now already. My head feel very heavy and yesterday just went to see a doctor with DH and baobei. Baobei was sick on the trip back, vomited at one of the rest stop and yesterday evening she had slight fever. So my MIL drove us to see a doctor.

Going Hatyai today evening

Just came back from SMRT interview. The hourly pay is not bad. Got shortlisted and starting my training this coming 17th which is on baobei's birthday. Anyway, going to celebrate her birthday on the 15th with my in laws and my parents.

4 Days of training can bring me $205/-. But baobei school briefing is on my last day of training. No choice got to ask DH to go attend. Next time when you see me on the platform, remember to said 'Hi' to me. Haha.. Anyway, won't be updating this blog until the 12th.

See ya~ ^^

Sleepless Night

Today, woke up at 8am but actually didn't get to sleep whole night. First was baobei getting up my bed to sleep twice at 2am and I put her to sleep on bed again. At 2.30 she climb up my bed again, telling me bed got "kah kah". I switch the light but found nothing on it. Okay I put her to sleep with us. But whole night, I didn't get a bit of sleep until 6.30am. Couldn't sleep even I was damn sick and just eaten the drownsy medicine.

Wake up, baobei told me she want to eat Macdonald Big Breakfast so I want Mac Delivery which cost $15.55 for 2 set meal. I ate a Filet O fish meal but eat half way no appetite already. After that, I clean up the whole house and went to bring baobei down to play her "car". Electronic Car which she sit inside I can control with a controller. That was her birthday present last year from my in laws. Baobei got a total of 4 "vehicle", scooter, horsey, tricycle and a car. All brought by my in laws. She's damn fortunate to born in this family, she want what also can get. Pamper and stubborn girl. No choice, I only have one child which is more than enough already. While I am typing this posting for today, she is watching her Barney VCD. She got a whole set of Barney, Doreamon whole collection, Zhu Zhu Xia, Ji gong and alot more of collection which is really collection cause my MIL will buy it for her when new one is out. Xin Fu right? I also think so.

Anyway, so tired.... tomorrow got interview after that still must rush back to pack rest for the luggage. And my dad coming to fetch us at 1.30pm. zZzzz.. I departing at 7pm tomorrow night.

Down with bad flu again

Actually, today I got two interviews but I never went. One is at Suntec Pushcart another is at Amara Shopping Center. Both working hours actually fits well to my timing but I am too lazy and sick to go. Been sneezing the whole day through and my eyes are teary too. Somehow feverish also. Damn.. second down with flu within a week. My MIL said my body not enough Vitamin C, I don't know cause usually I got eat fruit almost daily. Somehow my body since young been quite weak.

Anyway, I got another interview on Friday 9am with SMRT HR. I think I apply wrong job already, actually should be Taxi call center CSA, don't know why become SMRT Train CSA. Went online to check the location of the interview and the job scope. I see already also sians half because must sign a year contract. But the timing is good, 5pm to 9pm Weekdays. PH and weekend off. I think can find another job to fit into my free time. But for the contract thing, must go there see already then decide. If its located at Sembawang MRT I don't mind seriously but the minimum pay I expecting is at least $5-$6 per hour at least! If less than that I wouldn't consider already.

Anyway, I think I stop for now because baobei coming out of the room to find me and accompany her already. And my head is damn giddy. Just ate some flu medicine.

A Tired Day Out

Wake up at 9am. Bath baobei and fed her to breakfast. When I was waiting at the PS North East station to go to VivoCity. There was this auntie, coming over and ask baobei how old. I told her next month 3years old. She told me her grand daughter also coming 3 this December. Her grand daughter knows how to count to 1 - 60, knows A - Z, knows all the color and shapes, knows left and right. I was there smiling at her, but inside my heart I was like "HELLO! DO I KNOW YOU?" WTF... come and boast to me about her grand daughter. After she finish talking, I smiled and walked away. Treated her mad woman. Although my baobei "not sooo clever" as her grand daughter but I am glad she is healthy and I only hope she develop on her on pace. Can't be bother with such BOASTFUL auntie whom I don't know even. ^^

When we reach brought her to play water. After she finish playing and cleaning her up. She requested for sit the kiddy ride. 0-5mins cost $3.20. I was like okay since she liked it then fine. My nightmare just started, I went to GV and collect my member card but I forgotten printout my email, so bleah..cannot collect. Baobei asked me for a popcorn, so brought her one. Before that she brought a char siew bao and a M&M candy already. Anyway, if she can finish the food why not buy for her.

After that brought her to PS, we went to arcade and spent $7 there playing some games. After that, I went to Daiso, baobei again wanted me to buy her a Xmas hat but I refuse to buy for her because today spent abit too much already. She was throwing her tantrum there. Anyway, can't be bother just walked off then she follow behind me. I went to meet DH at Just Acia for lunch. Saw a secondary school friend there, but didn't bother to call him also. Caused during my secondary school days, I didn't likes my classmates there and they also didn't like me. But who cares, I only need REAL friends not fakers around me. Anyway, that was the past.

Before that, I asked my DH to printout my email then I collect my GV membership card so went to collect and went home. But story haven't end here.

On the MRT train back, baobei and me was sitting at the two seater side so baobei lied down and sleep on my lap. On one stop, there was a old lady, really old one standing beside me. I wanted to give up my seat but baobei was crying there, that she wanted to sleep on my lap. I stand up already and sat back again cause I think the auntie also too embarrassed to sit. She asked me to sit instead. I was thinking wtf so many teenager and student was sitting nearby but none of them gave up the seat to her. It was sooooo Singaporean! Kiasu and Kiasi... and especially SELFISH!!!!

Fr3b Online

Forgotten introduce this website to you guys out there.

http://www.fr3b.com/referral_program.php?referrer_token=95a728ad87e069aebb6e64b5a847b663

Its a website which give out free sample of product to locals like us. But only things is we need to pay the postage. Its not a scam because I have already receive the mailout of the 3samples I order from them. Yesterday, I just requested for 2 more of others samples. The ranges of samples there're quite alot. Ranging from facial products to contact lens solution. No harm trying cause each postage is just a dollar or two.

Diet Plain and Comestic Surgery

I am down to 58.5kg already. I slim down 1.5kg compare to last week. 1weeks of dieting and exercising I lost 3.5kg. But last week I skipped my exercising plan and my diet was back to normal with rice and some oily stuff. Although I eat but I eat in moderation so not so bad. I think this week I'll be going HIIT again. My MIL and DH's granny said my bum and tummy look smaller compare to the past.

I just told DH about this. He told me if I can slim down to 50kg by end of 2008, he treat me to Genting trip. So I calculated:

9weeks left to end of 2008

1week = 1kg

9weeks = 9kg

So in the end I agreed and make it my motivation to slim down before CNY. Anyway, if I really slim down to 50kg clothes will be easier to buy.

XL -> L (My current statue), -> M (My next plan) -> S (By Oct'09)

I think alot of people will scold me mad, but if you ever been in my shoes, you wouldn't said this. 18 years old girl stuck in 30years old lady body. If you were me, how would you feel? I am 21 years old this year, I don't want to be so auntie yet although I am mom of one already.

By the way, I will going Hatyai this coming Friday with my family. Will be posting the 1st patch of photo up soon. Missed my grand auntie been almost ten years back since I last saw her in Hatyai. I wondering how was my cousins in Hatyai and Bangkok.

I got one crazy thinking to go for comestic surgery for double eyelids and nose bridging and maybe lipo in Hatyai. I am still thinking. Chemical peeling for me is a must, if by end of 2009 I can't slim down to 45kg. I will consider lipo on all areas, anyway, cost me only $2K SGD. Can save all my trouble exercising to lose fats. Double eyelid and nose bridging cost me only $238 each so why not do it but I scare of the pain only. DH's colleague introduce to him as his colleague is a regular customer there. Haha! Maybe one day on the street, you wouldn't recoginse me anymore. Anyway, I am still DREAMING!!!!! haha

Add on: I bring my baobei to VivoCity tomorrow and going PS for lunch with DH. GV really impatient, I lazy to collect my membership card, they email twice to collect it since last month. If I don't go collect by the 9th this month, my membership card will removed. Sians....

"Remember, happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have, it depends solely upon what you think."

I am sick and done with INTERVIEW!

Interviews, interviews... I am so done and bored with it! Now I am choosing jobs over jobs choosing me. One of the interviewer keep calling my handphone but I lazy to pick up lor cause didn't want to take up that job.

Neither I want to work at Mandai nor Bugis! Caused I don't like the Bugis lady boss attitude during interview but the boss is much friendlier though. As for Mandai I said before, if they don't raise my hourly paid I won't work, cause its still not fair. My journey to work and working hour are much more tougher than Sharon but my stupid paid is LESSER! Its not that my working experience is lesser than her but her qualification is higher which is the truth.

I know that many friends are saying that recession now, don't be so choosy over the job. But the problem is I know I am cocky but I prefer to work the job I like rather than I go compromise the job. Jobless, jobless lor. If not for my studies fees, I won't want to go interview. Procrastination? Yeah right! Maybe slack too much already, no mood to work. =p

But again, tomorrow gonna to see Strait Times again to find jobs. Arghh!! Wish me luck!

"Faith is different from proof; the latter is human, the former is a Gift from God"

Plan Failed again

New Jobs

Seriously, in doubt of working already. My new job is ... Tele-chatter. And I am holding two position of different company at the same time. Saturday morning, just for a hour alone, I already earned $11 chatting with a guy. Not naughty chat just decent chatting only. Party chat is harder is earning which I found out its true. 10cents a voicemail received is quite hard rather use Live voice chat.

But but but, DH (dear hubby) was against my job cause he felt that this job is cheating people as others guy spent so money on calling but was speaking to a operator who was pay to do so. He felt that it was a liar act so no choice I respected him and quited one of it today. $1 per minutes is damn real ex, stupid people then will call in but operator only earn 20cents - 30cents per minute and the first minute is FOC. Dammit! Second one was a freelance so if I don't pick up I don't earn. The one I quited was 6 days a week, 3 hours a day. Easy money though just using my voice to earn $. So hais.. honesty VS money. Honesty is still my point in the end of the day.

"I do not lend myself to the wrong which I condemn..."

Bleah bleah bleah

Interviewed at Paya Lebar today. Landed in a new job. But it doesn't to easy job as it seems before. Seriously, I was really regretting taking the job. It's seem damn tough to get a mail. Shit lor. Anyway, hoping tomorrow is better when I start my new assignment. And hope another company also call me then I take up the two jobs. Then, the Mandai job I was thinking not to do lor. Cause Sharon was given a higher pay really disappointed in the supervisor.

"Never put off till tomorrow what you can do today."

My previous blog was a total letdown due to Friendster errors when I blogged, sometimes my article wouldn't upload and in the end I had to retype whole thing. So I giving up the stupid blog.

Summary of My Life

Career

As previously blogged, 6months back I given up my CSA job for my daughter. Now being a full time homemaker. I am seriously feeling empty and unfullfill. Looking at all my ex classmate, I seem like the only one who have no qualification nor jobs. Previously, when I was working although I am tired and quite often piss off but I felt achievement in life what I didn't have before. So two weeks back, I had a new motivation in life to set as my target. But things didn't always turn out as what I wanted. My MIL didn't allow me to work full time as previously and I was only allowed to allow part time during evening and weekends. Yesterday, I went for two interviews. One sales promotor job at Night Safari and another is a operator job. One have been confirmed but the incentives and commission they haven't confirm with me so I was still considerating their offer. Operator job will be confirm either today or tomorrow. Their paid is good thou. Tomorrow have another interview also at 2pm. So wish me luck.

PS: I still have a dream to go for no matter what's the outcome. I still try my best to get it by 2012. If it really come true, I will share with you guys what's my dream.


Studies

I have discussed with my mom regarding my studies topic again. The outcome seens not bad compare to the past. My mom told me not that she can't afford this money but scare that I give up half way again like my previous O level and ITE. So if by next year May I can't save it amount, I will borrow it from her. I still believe that nothing is impossible if you try your best to get what you want.


My Family

Although my dream is always stuck because I had a family earlier than my friends. But I believe that if there's a will, there's a hope. My daughter turning 3 years old next year and my hubby is still working in a gaming company almost for a year already. Next year, my baobei is going to the nursery! Days really passes so fast and I am 22 next year already. Bleah.. feel so old. Anyway, she's been a adorable and naughty girl. Sometimes, she really piss me off but still most of the time she is still adorable and clever. And she got tons of why, what and where? everyday.

"If there's a will, there's a hope"