Split Personality?

I wonder do I really have split character. I can't said no because indecisive, kind and loving is good part of me but the other part of me was a monster who is filled with jealousy, evil thoughts and revengeful.

Sometimes, I really wonder removing my blog is a good thing a not and should be blogging down about "her" in the first place years back. I am quite regretful partly but evil side of was grinning away. Lynette asked me why would I approach her for comfort instead of the 6others kaikis. I not sure why, maybe I feel that Lynette is the most approachable one and she is the only one who had a kid like me. That's why I feel closer to her than the 5others gals. These fews day, because of "her" I blog more oftenly. I didn't want to tell my parents or in laws about this because I didn't want to them to be worry about me and dar marriage. Our marriage is like a rock on the verge of a mountain, its only a matter of time that something good or bad would happen. But I can't complain much cause its the choice I made 3years plus back.

Okay bad news over, good news is here.

Dar going to sell one of his gaming account which can be a good income for us. Because his account cost at least SGD$5k. If the deal can be through, we can clear his study loan from his mom and start saving for a place called OUR HOME! Well, the rest of it will go to dar driving fees and I am thinking to go to HK or Tawian for a holiday. Hopefully it be come true lar cause dar said it a replacement for our HONEYMOOD. We din went that time as I was already pregnant. So yeah. I am really looking forward to it. ^^

JUVY I WILL CURSE YOU FOR THE REST FOR YOUR LIFE

I finally decided to keep the closes private and google search can't find that old blog of mine. But most of friends who knew about her coming forward to me asking me to remove this blog was against me agreeing to her request. Well, I just want some peace from her. She try to hoax me by telling darling that her friends is checking who is the blogger of that blog and it will threaten my safety. Ass her lor. I think her friends who said that are so uneducated. If the thing is true why threaten me to take it down? Affect her life now? Then why she affect my life 3years back. She said I misunderstood her, but hell no. She knew Adrian was attached and like her. She still don't avoid him and still stay overnight his house. Was that a DECENT GIRL would DO?????? I really wonder... not her boyfriend still got the cheek to tell me, they didn't do anything, then why stayover that his house so regularly???? Then behave so loving infront me when he is still my boyfriend at that time. She threaten my safety okay, when I thought of going to the police to make report of her friend threatening me if I don't remove that blog. But I removed not to pacifiy her but to protect my daughter. I am a mother already and not a single girl who is alone to do anyting I want. I need have responsibility in my daughter safety too.

All my words are TRUE!

I don't know why that Juvy will called up and still have the cheek to ask me to remove a blog posting in my old blog. If you know why I would said that you can refer to this link below:

http://lmissyjl2.com

Nothing is fake or lied. But she still said I misunderstood her and my blog posting is disturbing her life now. WTF?!? 3 years back, you didn't said anything but now you came forward and ask me to remove. You still dare to the cheek to do said this arh. Fucking Bitch! Her call to darling, make me quarrel with him. And I broke down crying. Memories of the hurt they caused to me 3years back, suddenly over ride me. Although I forgive them doesn't mean I forget about what happen!

Hey JUVY, you dare to tell me nothing happen between you and Adrian. Then why would you go to this house so regularly in the middle of the night?!? And you know his attached and still have the heart to do this. REMEMBER, what comes around goes around! I can't remove the posting anyway, caused I don't have the username or the password to remove it liao! WHICH IS GRATZ! Hahahahahha

I am just crazy in planning my schedule

I found out long ago that I am really suxs in planning things. That's why most of the time I will do my things earlier than usual if not I sure forget or miss out somethings.

Recently, I started planning out my daily schedule due to baobei's Nursery class. There're so many school holiday or public holiday to remember. I am scare that I forgot that she don't have school on which day and I still bring her there. Then gong gong wait outside for the class room door to open. =.=" .. I know this sounds weird but I am really forgetful and terribly BLUR! Always forget this and that. Sometimes I want to said or do something, the next minute I will forget liao. Very jialat right. I know but what to do, I am like that since I was young. My parents also buay tahan my character like that. zZzz... Sometimes I am damn indecisive and stupid. Yah right stupid. My mom always said, I give in too much to darling. But bobian, I don't want to quarrel so mind as well forget it and do my own things.

Oh ya.. I also TBC on the previous posting. I went out to meet darling at PS to watch Twilight. I really fell in love with Edward Cullen in the story who is romantic and loyal. And most importantly, I like guys with great beautiful attractive eyes. Suddenly, this sentense remind me of someone. Who I am in love with once or I can said admire. Well, that was 6years back things already. >.<" Anyway, after that show I went after Stephanie Meyer books but popular all out of stock for New moon and the 2 other series. I am thinking to collect the series. You know how crazy I am when I want something. I almost brought the books from Amazon but I scare darling nag so I went to Sun Plaza Popular to find but they left only the movie series and the key unlock. So bleah.. took a cab to North Point but couldn't find so in the end I went to NLB in NP to find the book BUT BUT BUT all was out. I went to make reservation, and I was in the #330 queue. Really suxs lor. I am not sure whether can I read the books since 1 person is around 2 weeks. I think I must wait till around mid June already. I am hoping to find it in Kino but I heard one of FP podder that its out of stock also. So bleah... Its really sickening lor. EDWARD CULLEN!

Hey, I went to IAHgames Blood Donation Drive in Red Dot Museum to donate blood. Know what I bloody damn scare of pain but in the end I took my courage for the first time to do something. I was damn stress on the 4th January because of this. Darling's colleagues all said I look so stress. Its the truth that I AM BLOODY SCARE LOR! But lucky, the whole process doesn't hurt much except for the blood test round. Its hurts my right middle finger with a dot hole. Damn I hate it! But other than that is ALL FINE! The duration to pump my blood was 15minutes. The auntie nurse there was very nice and funny. As my left arm vein can't be found and right hand vein is damn f-king thin and weak. She ask me to consider whether to donate anot as my arm sure blue black and I am a right handed. If I use my right hand I can't do my housework on that day liao and cannot carry baobei. Know what during the whole things, darling and his colleague kept using their camera to capture my bloody ugly stressed face. I didn't feel anything until I reach Sun plaza by cab. I was so tired and wore out after that. When I was at Sake Sushi, I almost fall asleep when I was eating as I didn't sleep much the day before and was too wore out. Went back home, unpack all those stuffs for baobei. I went to zZzzzz... slept for around 1hour and was awaken by baobei. So woke up restlessly and went to use the laptop. Hais.. chatted with FP kaikis again. And so on...